Why are you afraid?

The last couple of months have been really difficult for me in terms of facing my fears. I felt like all my memories of Clint Eastwood’s movies were gone, useless, vanished from my mind. All the books I read, articles from Art of Manliness, and the lessons I learned from my own experiences, they all were gone.

I started to feel so weak toward my fears. I started to not doing things because I wanted to feel safe in my comfort zone. I started to be afraid of everything.

Avengers: Endgame

But this was not a surprise to me. I know that life is full of ups and downs. I knew it was a matter of time to fall again, and this falling was really hard.

Anyway, it’s not the first time I’m struggling with life and fears. That’s why I know exactly what to do.

I just have to remember. We all have memories of our triumphs and defeats, so what we gotta do is to remember the times that we beat our fears and demons.

Me particularly, among all my memories, there are particularly two of them that make me remember that fears are sh*t:

  • The last hours of my dogs Moicca and Zack.

I remember seeing them, their eyes, their skin and thinking to myself: Nothing really matters.

All my other sad moments were nothing compared to seeing my dogs dying. All my worries, fears, they all seemed like sh*t.

So that’s what I do. Those memories are the ones that make me remember: “Don’t be afraid”. Find yours, I’m sure you have it.

Here’s a song.

Feeder – Bees

Life is cruel, Satoshi…

…It doesn’t care where you are from, what god you pray to, it is, so you must face it head on


That quote is from the movie “Mortal Kombat: Scorpion’s Revenge”, one of the most badass movies I’ve ever seen.

Scorpion and his son.

Even though this movie is extremely violent and has completely gross bloody scenes, it has deep message, and that’s what I really love about movies, they have to be entertaining and meaningful. A good movie may be one of them, but a great movie is both, and this Mortal Kombat movie is definitely a great one.

I’ve never been a fan of gore movies because I’ve always found it unnecessary, for instance: Tarantino’s movies. But in “Mortal Kombat: Scorpion’s Revenge”, I think the amount of blood is justified, not only because the story is based on an epic video game, but because the situation demands. The main character is hit in the most hurting way and he seeks revenge. Totally justified.

You can think revenge is not good, but you wouldn’t say that to Scorpion, I don’t think anyone could do it, not even Clint Eastwood. Because when life is cruel to you, you have to deal with it, and Scorpion knew it right.

A playlist to travel around the world

This post is being written in pandemic times, when many airports and frontiers are closed, hence, almost nobody is currently traveling. So, why create a post to encourage people to travel when it’s almost impossible to do so? The answer is pretty simple: why not?

From Walter Mitty movie.

We don’t know what’s gonna happen, we don’t know if a vaccine is gonna be found, or if is gonna be effective. Maybe it’s the beginning of a zombie apocalypse, or maybe this was all planned by aliens and we are gonna be colonized in a few months. We just simply don’t know.

Anyway, in any worst case scenario, we are gonna miss the “old world”, how our lives were before, and one of the things that we are gonna miss the most will be traveling. That’s why I created a playlist and sharing it to the world so they can listen to those beautiful songs when they are chilling out, after killing some zombies, dreaming about an ideal world, the one we had before, even with all the ups and downs.

This playlist is called “Take the plunge“. If you are reading this post you already know why. Feel free to add some recommendations: nautilano@gmail.com

Chill songs, friends and marijuana

Spotify’s Discover Weekly algorithm works pretty good. I’ve found many of my favorite songs thanks to that feature. Every week, after some hours listening to the recommended songs, I used to save 3 or 4 of them and add them to my playlist called “Weekly”, which contains all the great songs I discovered from DW.

But this last week something strange happened. The new 30 songs recommended by Spotify were all f*cking great. Literally all songs were memorable enough to save them all into an specific playlist called “Perfect Discover Weekly 1”. I’m listening that playlist now while writing this. All of these songs had the same vibe, a nice indie mix between vaporwave, chill and psyquedelia. My kind of music.

How I felt listening to those songs

Listening that amazing playlist (thanks Spotify!) while being alone in a rooftop and isolated from the rest of the world (thank you Covid, f*ck u), reminded me of how much I miss my friends, being together, smoking weed while listening chill songs. If you ask me, weed is awesome. Although I don’t smoke frequently, now I miss that feeling, watching the stars while being high, wondering if that building looks like a spaceship or not. Yeah, I miss that.

I guess this quarantine is gonna make us realize what’s really important in life. Of course weed isn’t as important as friendship and music, but is a good plus (a really great plus).

Ok so I can’t give you weed but I can share one of the best chill songs ever written. My friends and I listened to this countless times.

My jinji- Sunset Rollercoaster.

A nice hostel in Iquitos, Perú

You’ve been traveling for seven months, you’ve met people, you’ve found yourself, but now you feel tired. Deep inside your mind you hear a voice telling you to continue. You know what’s your next destination. Now that you’ve found yourself, it’s the perfect moment to purify your soul, to reconciliate with your past and to identify and beat your fears. It’s the perfect time to go to the jungle. But first, you need to find a nice hostel to stay, a perfect place to make friends and a temporal home where you will be loved and cared. A place where you would like to come back after the tours and that you’ll feel sad when the time to say good bye comes.

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Who’s making this world a worst place?

Back when I was a teenager I used to think that all kinds of drugs and alcohol were totally bad for people and society, mostly because I spent my school days watching many of my “bad” classmates being suspended or penalized for bringing alcohol or cigarettes to the class. Of course, I was one of the good kids, and my parents were very proud of me because I never gave them those kind of problems. I thought many times “I will never be like those kids, I’ll never drink alcohol, do drugs, go to parties and have sex before marriage. I’m a good kid who’s gonna make this world a better place”.

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The only damn reason to blog

Some people start a blog because they want to sell stuff, whereas others just want to write poetry. In WordPress, as well as other blogging platforms, you can find musicians, painters, illustrators, writers, and even youtubers. Some of this artists may want to earn some money through inserting ads on his blog or selling their work, and that’s totally fine. But there is some people that just want to share their art and thoughts to the world, just because it makes them feel good. Those are my favourite people. Yeah. It’s great making money doing something you love, but doing something you love just because you want is priceless. I don’t want you to agree with me. I just know that I wouldn’t feel comfortable monetizing my site knowing that my readers would see annoying ads everywhere. I run a blog because I want to do it, because I like it and because it feels nice to read my words on the web. Nevertheless, these are not the real reasons why I blog and why everybody should as well.

The only reason to blog is: being useful.

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Like an angel

Stop, my friend. Stop thinking about your ex. Stop scrolling the profiles of the hottest girls of your town. Stop viewing stories of your crush. Stop jerking off watching videos of nude girls. At least try it, for your own good. You are wasting time doing all these things, and you know it. You know you have bettter things to do. You just have to man up and do it. But first you have to stop doing all the stuff that prevents you to be the man you want to be.

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The only time I beat fapping

So, yeah, I still fap. After many years enjoying it and, eventually, trying to eliminate this bad habit from my life. I even wrote an article about this (in spanish) where I explain my point of view about masturbation and how it can affect our lives. I also mention the famous community called NoFap, where thousands of people try to help each other to stop fapping. Nevertheless, being part of that community and sharing my philosophy on my own blog didn’t make me stop jerking off.

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