Why are you afraid?

The last couple of months have been really difficult for me in terms of facing my fears. I felt like all my memories of Clint Eastwood’s movies were gone, useless, vanished from my mind. All the books I read, articles from Art of Manliness, and the lessons I learned from my own experiences, they all were gone.

I started to feel so weak toward my fears. I started to not doing things because I wanted to feel safe in my comfort zone. I started to be afraid of everything.

Avengers: Endgame

But this was not a surprise to me. I know that life is full of ups and downs. I knew it was a matter of time to fall again, and this falling was really hard.

Anyway, it’s not the first time I’m struggling with life and fears. That’s why I know exactly what to do.

I just have to remember. We all have memories of our triumphs and defeats, so what we gotta do is to remember the times that we beat our fears and demons.

Me particularly, among all my memories, there are particularly two of them that make me remember that fears are sh*t:

  • The last hours of my dogs Moicca and Zack.

I remember seeing them, their eyes, their skin and thinking to myself: Nothing really matters.

All my other sad moments were nothing compared to seeing my dogs dying. All my worries, fears, they all seemed like sh*t.

So that’s what I do. Those memories are the ones that make me remember: “Don’t be afraid”. Find yours, I’m sure you have it.

Here’s a song.

Feeder – Bees

[Pseudo-Poema] Maricielo

Tiene una cara de esas que te intriga
De aquellas que te ignoran y lastiman
Tiene una cara que parece preocupada
Que no sabes si te odia o te ama
Tiene una mirada dulce y amarga,
Que te dice todo y te dice nada
Tiene una caminata dura y aterciopelada
Que la ves pasar y tu respiración se apaga.

Just going with the flow

“Sometimes things don’t make sense until the end of the story” is a quote and one of the messages you get when watching Bill & Ted Face the Music, one of the best movies ever made and the perfect ending to an excellent trilogy.

Rufus’ clock.

Of course they didn’t know what that quote meant until the end of the movie. They didn’t say the meaning but it was shown with an example. But for those who are still struggling in finding the meaning, this post is for you.

That quote in fact is very complex and complicated in the meaning but not in the application. What do I mean with that?

Simple, when things don’t make sense, you can believe in luck, but when it does make sense, you can say it is destiny, karma, or god’s plan. In any situation, whether things make sense or not, you won’t really make your “assumption” until the end of the story. The thing is: all of this is bullshit, as any other existence theory. What matter the most here is what we really do in real life.

If you try so hard in finding the meaning of things, believing in destiny and other stuff, you will be dead while alive and you won’t know it until it’s very late and you find yourself reading this post in nautilano.com.

So this is my advice, and you can take it or leave it: Just go with the flow, man.

Just don’t give a f*ck, a damn, sh*t about things that make or not make sense. Just don’t. Go with the flow, don’t follow it, just be the flow, be the moment, let it be. As The Beatles used to say: Let it be.

Life is a science, and when you know how to handle it, it becomes an art. You will have to fail and screw it up many times before you know how to go with the flow. And you won’t really <know>, you will feel it. Try to let things happen, don’t force anything. If you don’t fell a bad vibe about that, just let it go, because probably there is nothing to worry about. Work with what you got, because you can’t always get what you want, but you get what you need, and the answer of all of this is blowing in the wind. Yep, those are songs from The Rolling Stones and Bob Dylan respectively.

Life is cruel, Satoshi…

…It doesn’t care where you are from, what god you pray to, it is, so you must face it head on


That quote is from the movie “Mortal Kombat: Scorpion’s Revenge”, one of the most badass movies I’ve ever seen.

Scorpion and his son.

Even though this movie is extremely violent and has completely gross bloody scenes, it has deep message, and that’s what I really love about movies, they have to be entertaining and meaningful. A good movie may be one of them, but a great movie is both, and this Mortal Kombat movie is definitely a great one.

I’ve never been a fan of gore movies because I’ve always found it unnecessary, for instance: Tarantino’s movies. But in “Mortal Kombat: Scorpion’s Revenge”, I think the amount of blood is justified, not only because the story is based on an epic video game, but because the situation demands. The main character is hit in the most hurting way and he seeks revenge. Totally justified.

You can think revenge is not good, but you wouldn’t say that to Scorpion, I don’t think anyone could do it, not even Clint Eastwood. Because when life is cruel to you, you have to deal with it, and Scorpion knew it right.

A playlist to travel around the world

This post is being written in pandemic times, when many airports and frontiers are closed, hence, almost nobody is currently traveling. So, why create a post to encourage people to travel when it’s almost impossible to do so? The answer is pretty simple: why not?

From Walter Mitty movie.

We don’t know what’s gonna happen, we don’t know if a vaccine is gonna be found, or if is gonna be effective. Maybe it’s the beginning of a zombie apocalypse, or maybe this was all planned by aliens and we are gonna be colonized in a few months. We just simply don’t know.

Anyway, in any worst case scenario, we are gonna miss the “old world”, how our lives were before, and one of the things that we are gonna miss the most will be traveling. That’s why I created a playlist and sharing it to the world so they can listen to those beautiful songs when they are chilling out, after killing some zombies, dreaming about an ideal world, the one we had before, even with all the ups and downs.

This playlist is called “Take the plunge“. If you are reading this post you already know why. Feel free to add some recommendations: nautilano@gmail.com

La emancipación del bueno

Qué horrible es querer hacer algo bueno. Qué horrible es tener la intención. Qué horrible es pedir permiso, y acatar una prohibición a pesar de los esfuerzos.

Qué horrible es sentir. Qué horrible es tener compasión. Qué horrible es querer ayudar, y no poder hacer nada al respecto.

Qué horrible es insistir. Qué horrible es perder el tiempo. Qué horrible es saber que mis intentos, no valen nada por el momento.

Chill songs, friends and marijuana

Spotify’s Discover Weekly algorithm works pretty good. I’ve found many of my favorite songs thanks to that feature. Every week, after some hours listening to the recommended songs, I used to save 3 or 4 of them and add them to my playlist called “Weekly”, which contains all the great songs I discovered from DW.

But this last week something strange happened. The new 30 songs recommended by Spotify were all f*cking great. Literally all songs were memorable enough to save them all into an specific playlist called “Perfect Discover Weekly 1”. I’m listening that playlist now while writing this. All of these songs had the same vibe, a nice indie mix between vaporwave, chill and psyquedelia. My kind of music.

How I felt listening to those songs

Listening that amazing playlist (thanks Spotify!) while being alone in a rooftop and isolated from the rest of the world (thank you Covid, f*ck u), reminded me of how much I miss my friends, being together, smoking weed while listening chill songs. If you ask me, weed is awesome. Although I don’t smoke frequently, now I miss that feeling, watching the stars while being high, wondering if that building looks like a spaceship or not. Yeah, I miss that.

I guess this quarantine is gonna make us realize what’s really important in life. Of course weed isn’t as important as friendship and music, but is a good plus (a really great plus).

Ok so I can’t give you weed but I can share one of the best chill songs ever written. My friends and I listened to this countless times.

My jinji- Sunset Rollercoaster.

The inner good

Life has ups and downs, we all know that. No matter how emotionally strong you think you are, there will always be moments of weakness. You’ll win some of those battles and lose many others.

One of the biggest battles we face (and maybe the most important) is “the good and the bad” one. To do the right thing or not. To be nice or mean. We, normal humans, don’t fight supervillains. We fight ourselves and we keep fighting that battle forever. We become stronger after every defeat or victory.

Shazam! 2019. If you watched the movie you’ll know why is this here.

If you were lucky, after your first battles when you were a child, you decided what side to be part of in this “good vs bad” war. If you are reading this, you probably have some foundations of values and principles in your spirit. If you are not sure whether you are a good or a bad person, don’t worry, you probably are. Wondering and looking for answers about the soul is a quality of good people.

Don’t worry. That’s all I can say to you, and many chill singers of history would agree. If you’ve a lost a battle, if you’ve fallen into temptation and you are struggling in finding the right answers…just…don’t worry. You’ll have another chance to prove yourself that you are a good and worthy person. Because we all have an inner good, it just takes time to find it, and once you do, you’ll also find inner peace, and that’s another step towards victory.

No wifi on Manjaro [Fix]

What’s up folks! I hope you’re doing ok during these quarantine days. I hope you’re doing something useful with your time as well. There are plenty of things to do, such as finishing that book or movie, cleaning your room, or stop using windows and switch to Linux instead.

Well yeah, I did that. I was using a desktop computer with Windows on a daily basis, but with all of these conspiracy theories about Bill Gates and the Coronavirus, I said: fuck it, I’m not using this shit anymore, so I decided to set up a dual boot with Linux installed, so I can start feeling comfortable again when surfing the web and doing all my stuff. I used and enjoyed Ubuntu on an old laptop before, but this time I wanted to try something different, so I chose Manjaro.

So far I’m loving it. Even though I had tons of problems the first days, it was funny, I had a hard and a good time trying to solve them. At the end I always felt like it was worth it, because I learned the basics and got a wide perspective about what Manjaro (and Arch) is.

Ok, so now let’s talk about this problem. I finished installing Manjaro Xfce, and I was so excited to finally try a new distro. Everything looked so clean and minimal, so I opened firefox to read how to set up my new computer and learn the basics, but then I noticed one little problem, there was no fucking wifi.

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